GOD & me

Geez! I gotta admit our final week's topic is the most difficult one! =)

For me, it's not that simple to describe my personal relationship with God. In fact, it is a very long journey with countless ups and downs, together with all sorts of feelings involved. No doubt, it has always been beautiful! =)

Actually, I'm not sure what should I write down here and how should I describe my feelings to God at the moment. Umm. Guess, let's just take a peek on my usual daily activities!

Usually in the morning, after I woke up properly and realized what time it was, I would say a simple good morning to God and thank Him for another day He has given to me. Afterwards, I would rush with my usual morning routine: take a hot shower, dress up, put on make-up, grab my handbag and not to forget take a quick look on one or two verses from my fave Psalms or sometimes Proverbs.

On the way to office, sometimes I would have a short conversation with Him, talking about what breakfast I would like to have that day. Other times, I would sing some praise or worship songs in my heart for Him or simply beg for His mercy for some souls in purgatory. And some other times, I would just fall asleep and think nothing about anything on earth, but my beloved bedroom. Haha.

During work, I gotta admit that most of the time I usually forgot about Him. There were merely a few times I did ask Him what shall I do regarding some of important decisions I need to make. Another time, there were days when I worshiped and adored Him in the midst of my hectic days in office. And other times, I did have light conversations with Him in office, about anything under the sun. Just like a light conversations between close friends.

After work, sometimes I would visit Him in adoration chapel and attend daily Mass. Some other times if I were too tired or have another stuffs to do or simply too lazy, I would skip the daily Mass.

Night time, sometimes I would share with Him the story of the day, happy ones, sad ones, and pour out my true feelings to Him. I would seek His comments or His guidance on certain things. It might be kinda weird or strange to some. Sometimes I would feel that He is sitting beside me, holding me close in His arms and smiling. Sometimes we were just stay there in the silence, enjoy the beautiful moments. Sometimes He told me He is not really pleased with what I've done. I could clearly feel how much and how deep and how great is His unending love. It is obviously one of the most beautiful things on earth, when He said, "I love you and you are Mine."

Sadly to say, there were times I 'ignored' Him and His real existence. I would just recite the official Our Father quickly and take a peek on another one or two verses of Holy Bible and straightly go to sound sleep!

Two years from now, I do hope that I would be able to 'include' Him in every single activity which I do , be it work, play, or simply anything! =) And I do hope that I would not be 'too busy' with other things until I forget about His presence and ignore Him.

Guess that's all for my Week 5 entry .... =)