Last Entry for BlogFest

" ... but on a graph, my relationship with God would be a straight line with a few bumps here and there." ~Catherine~



Seeing Catherine's 'relationship-with-God' graph above made me ponder for a few days, how would my own graph would be if I were to illustrate it?

Guess my graph might looks pretty much the same with hers. There were always ups and downs here and there. It's kinda complicated, though.

Suddenly it reminds me of what my spiritual leader once told me.

"Our relationship with God, although there will always be mountains and hills, ups and downs all the time, it is important for us to ensure that we increase our personal standards over time."

In other words, BY RIGHT the graph should be similar to the following:



I've almost forgotten this!
And yes, after pondering over, guess I really need to TRY to ENSURE that my personal standards are increasing over time.

Regarding what kind of personal standards which he (my spiritual leader) meant.
Let's take an example of the extreme case.
Let say, 10 years ago A's 'down' period was when A robbed a bank, and A's 'up' period was when A decided to visit Church twice a year on Christmas & Easter.
So by now, A's 'down' period should be when A only visit Church twice a year on Christmas & Easter, and A's 'up' period is when A decided to visit Church regularly every week.

It is DEFINITELY not an easy thing to do.
Yet, guess I need to add this 'standard-improvement' factor on my wish-list for my personal relationship with God within two years from now on, as I wrote in previous entry.

That's all for my last entry in our BlogFest.

Thanksss much to everyone involved! =)

GOD & me

Geez! I gotta admit our final week's topic is the most difficult one! =)

For me, it's not that simple to describe my personal relationship with God. In fact, it is a very long journey with countless ups and downs, together with all sorts of feelings involved. No doubt, it has always been beautiful! =)

Actually, I'm not sure what should I write down here and how should I describe my feelings to God at the moment. Umm. Guess, let's just take a peek on my usual daily activities!

Usually in the morning, after I woke up properly and realized what time it was, I would say a simple good morning to God and thank Him for another day He has given to me. Afterwards, I would rush with my usual morning routine: take a hot shower, dress up, put on make-up, grab my handbag and not to forget take a quick look on one or two verses from my fave Psalms or sometimes Proverbs.

On the way to office, sometimes I would have a short conversation with Him, talking about what breakfast I would like to have that day. Other times, I would sing some praise or worship songs in my heart for Him or simply beg for His mercy for some souls in purgatory. And some other times, I would just fall asleep and think nothing about anything on earth, but my beloved bedroom. Haha.

During work, I gotta admit that most of the time I usually forgot about Him. There were merely a few times I did ask Him what shall I do regarding some of important decisions I need to make. Another time, there were days when I worshiped and adored Him in the midst of my hectic days in office. And other times, I did have light conversations with Him in office, about anything under the sun. Just like a light conversations between close friends.

After work, sometimes I would visit Him in adoration chapel and attend daily Mass. Some other times if I were too tired or have another stuffs to do or simply too lazy, I would skip the daily Mass.

Night time, sometimes I would share with Him the story of the day, happy ones, sad ones, and pour out my true feelings to Him. I would seek His comments or His guidance on certain things. It might be kinda weird or strange to some. Sometimes I would feel that He is sitting beside me, holding me close in His arms and smiling. Sometimes we were just stay there in the silence, enjoy the beautiful moments. Sometimes He told me He is not really pleased with what I've done. I could clearly feel how much and how deep and how great is His unending love. It is obviously one of the most beautiful things on earth, when He said, "I love you and you are Mine."

Sadly to say, there were times I 'ignored' Him and His real existence. I would just recite the official Our Father quickly and take a peek on another one or two verses of Holy Bible and straightly go to sound sleep!

Two years from now, I do hope that I would be able to 'include' Him in every single activity which I do , be it work, play, or simply anything! =) And I do hope that I would not be 'too busy' with other things until I forget about His presence and ignore Him.

Guess that's all for my Week 5 entry .... =)